I am who I am!

I have settled in here very comfortably now. It is peaceful (expect for the occasion DEATH and WEDDING) and routine. no going to the mall, no makan dates with sisters and friends, no going for movie and no phone call.

The highlight of the day usually is to see if anyone POO in my garden! which is every two or three days. or harvest the lady fingers. Now that there is no maid for me to get angry and frustrated, the highlight in my kitchen is to burn my cooking pot! Oh ya, waiting for Korean series at 8 pm.

I realized that I love being alone. Don't get me wrong, I love my kids, esp grandchildren, and occasionally friends visit. I love not talking to others when I don't feel like it, not cooking, not eating if I don't want to and best of all if I want to eat non stop also no one to tell me not to! I can go to bed at 6 pm or 6 am, no one to ask me why and best of all, I do not have to please anyone. I can mess up my room, dirty my kitchen or I can make cakes after cakes and give away or wasting all my time away in FB.

Sleep comes early nowadays, my eyes can hardly open by 9 pm, that is after the Korean series and I spend an hour or two playing scrabble or games on line. That also stop since I could not get into scrabble. Quilt a little and play a lot.

Oh ya, one more thing, no one to tell me how young and how good I look! My hairs are all gray, I never ever dress up ( I do not go around naked) other then when I need to go for Bahaí functions.
I don't have a reputation of being young and beautiful over here, I came as an old lady and no one expect otherwise. In KL, I have to colour my hairs, dress for occasion BECAUSE the friends think that I am forever young and beautiful! They don't know how much time, money and effort to keep up to that reputation.

I am who I am and I am now. Single, alone and HAPPY!

Nothing

It has gone on for some times, I very much wanted to write. Everyday there is something that worth writing but when I am with my laptop, I REALLY don't know what to write.

Life is a challenge in Battambang and many a time I wanted to pack and go but I told myself I am not a quitter! I have come to like the life here too, I have a feeling that I belong here and not KL anymore. Each happening, each challenge just like a confirmation.