Expectation and disappointment

Some body once told me not to expect so that I would not be disappointed.....That was 36 years ago, I was so disappointed in life and friends then. Where were they? They were at my place day in and day out but disappeared after Boon passed away. Were they not my friends too? I cooked, washed and served them with all my heart and my love. No one ever visited me, was I that invisible?

That was a good advice but I am only human, I have feeling, I struggled to overcome my disappointment and I though I have done well. But once in a while the feeling does appear but for some other reasons.

Being here made me realized how alone I am, other than running the school, what else? I need help, who isthere  to help me?  Never feel so helpless and alone like now.