Reflection 15/4/12

Picture on the top - taken yesterday (look at the rubbish)
Picture at the bottom, same place last year!


Fancy how I changed (matured or whatever one like to term it)over the last three years!

The first year when I was here, I remember it was March 2005 and it was a fasting month. I could not get out of the house, I could not wear any shirt, just a sarong and I had to sleep under the fan the whole day.. ... why? because it was so hot.
By April 2009, I decided to settle down here, I bath 5 times a day with iced water and the minute I got out of the bathroom, I sweat profoundly. Can you imagine how others had to hear of my complains?
What happen this year during the fast? I worked, cooked, made cookies in the day for Naw Ruz, sweat and sweat but not so much complains and definitely not grumpy anymore.

Over the years, I am deaf to the noise outside, the deafening sound of wedding and death and the music from the gym next. I didn't realize that until one day, one visitor commented about the noise and I was not even aware of that.

What else that make me one of the Cambodians? oh ya, it is the rubbish. I don't bother picking up the rubbish out side of the school compound anymore. I was thinking that individual transformation can lead to social transformation. I am not so sure about it now that I am staying in Battambang. Having said that, I am still who I am, I still try my best to educate the teachers, the students and friends about cleanliness but beyond that, I gave up.

posted on 15.4.2012